this is the first time that i am personally, facing straight into the eyes of financial crisis. whether or not i'm able to pay for my upcoming school fees + materials for school assignments is very unpredictable, anything can go wrong from here. to top this off, the family financial issues are pretty much similar to mine. and just like how life goes, problems do not just begin and end at the financial aspects.

great.



to whom it may concern:
i'm getting back to doing my work now. this is just a little time-out i need to let go.

been working 3 days straight for the first time since last Tuesday. pretty exhausting, especially that i had class right fater work on Wednesday, and not forgetting having to look after my dad for those 3 nights as well. and as much as i thought i'd have trouble keeping my peepers open due to the lack of sleep, i actually had no trouble at all! on Tuesday and Wednesday, Aunty Margaret and Teresa and some others were around, and working with these two ladies (yes, "ladies" to Aunty Margaret as well even if she's like already a grandmother) was crazy! i never knew Aunty Margaret to be.. erm.. sarcastically funny. i mean i didn't expect her to entertain me and Teresa's nonsense. well i'll just list down some of the conversations we had:

Scene 1
Me: Teresa, so this is the new membership card ah? the one that has the word "it's wild"? *showed her the brochure with the picture of the new membership card*
Teresa: umm ya ya, that one.
Aunty Margaret: *took her copy of the brochure* which one which one?
Me: *points at the picture*
Aunty Margaret: oh "it's wild" ah..
Teresa: yes aunty.. are you wild aunty?
Aunty Margaret: *as a matter-of-fact kind of tone* yes i'm wild.. when i was younger..
*Teresa and i just burst into laughter*

Scene 2
Aunty was telling us of the tragic love triangle story she read at NewPaper, about a husband having an affair, who doesn't love his wife anymroe that eventually lead the wife to commit suicide. what she said went something like this:-

Aunty Margaret: over 30 years of marriage already then tell the wife he don't love her anymore. she kill herself for the husband not worth it ah.. man like this ah, can go fly kite!

Scene 3
this was a period of time whereby the ticketing booth (tbooth) were free from customers. there were no queues at all. then came along an apek who passed by Aunty Margaret's and my counter, and walked all the way to the end to Teresa's counter.

Aunty Margaret: see ah, our counters open he go all the way to Teresa's counter. he go to the pretty one ah, see Teresa..

when the apek left..

Aunty Margaret: i go there (to Teresa's counter) disturb her. *when she got to Teresa* eh Teresa! that old man like you ah, our counters oepn he go to your counter. *laughed*

Teresa just gave a look, lol. when that apek was seen lingering around tbooth, Aunty went at it again.

Aunty Margaret: eh Teresa, see! your boyfriend here again! haha. he like you ah, skin fair2 one.. pretty2.
Teresa: aiyah Aunty, you jealous right.. you no boyfriend.. you don't want boyfriend ah Aunty?
Aunty Margaret: dowan ah, very irritating.

Scene 4
we were getting ready to open our counters. stacked our maps and vouchers, cleaning our counter tops.. Aunty Margaret was logging on the Nets machine, when halfway through the connection got lost due to the wiring or something.

Aunty Margaret: haiya see la.. the wire loose.. like Teresa!

everyone at tbooth, including Aunty, just roared with laughter! and Teresa din't have a clue about what was goung on coz she din't hear what Aunty just said.

lol. k, idk if anyone finds this hilarious, but you have to be there when Aunty Margaret was saying all that. it's the way she said it, i guess. her tone was normal, like she didn't mean to be funny at all.. but it just is. now i look forward to work whenever she and Teresa's around.

ok now for a good news: i had a solid 13 hours of sleep last night!! woohoo! i've never had this loooonnnggg sleep for the past one year!! :DD i was dead beat yesterday as soon as i got home from work (i was supposed to end at 4, but had to extend till 6pm), so after a bath i just crashed the bed.. Dear left a couple of missed calls of which i only managed to answer 2.. hah. so yes. 13 hours of sleep, woke up at 9 this morning and i should be working on revamping my site by now, instead of trying to be filthy rich at Cafe World. kwakwa. -_-"

still, i'm in dire need to head out today. been a week since i see that botakhead. i guess for now i'll just have to look forward for the field trip tomorrow. speaking of which, school had been fun. as classmates, we bond well, and being in Anthon's class is just crazy. like, good crazy. Anthon himself is hilariously insane, easily distracted while in the midst of teaching us, ie. "you all may not undertsand entirely now - omg i really need to pee - but you'll understand better when we go for the site visit this Saturday". of course it's not in his exact words, but it went something like that. lol.

Has and i had some heart-to-heart conversation via SMS the other day. and it was really comforting. i'm glad we were on the same page about friendships and stuff. it's cool. been a long time since i have this kind of.. so-called "moment" with a girl friend. :) i'm dearly missing my looneys!

alright alright alright, i seriously need to get out of the internet and its eeeveeell distractions and hop on to Adobe. so.. till then balls!

at first i didn't believe my boyfriend when he said Sharkboy was Taylor Lautner, although they do look similar -- until i Googled it, and of course he was right. hah, i'm very slow, i know. but Taylor seems to develop his maturity so fast that's why it was so hard to believe in the beginning. and he's only 17! on a side note, i think he looks better as Jacob Black, with that long hair and all. too bad he has it short in New Moon. well not that i care. but now i'm starting to visualize the Dearest sporting Jacob's long hair. hahaha omg that's really hard to imagine.

moving on, my November is sure to be packed. i think. first of all, i added a weekday to my working roster. i don't want to but i have to. i'm seriously in need of money. i even surprised myself by willingly adding a few more weekdays to work. oh and not forgetting to work on Hari Raya Haji itself. the double pay reels me in, that's why. i did some calculations and came to realise that i need 2 months' pay for my monthly school fee. now that's tragic. sigh.

the plan to go for the Halloween night at Night Safari last Saturday with Lydia was sadly disrupted. it was due to the heavy rain, which obviously caused the suspension of the Halloween tram rides, and next, was of what we were informed about Zoo staff not allowed for the free entry due to the overwhelming crowd. and the rain was just crazy. it was heavy at first, then it subsided, then it got all heavy again. so the two of us just slacked off at the loft when Juraidah joined us after awhile. when the rain finally departed (or so to speak) the three of us decided to head to Night Safari for a bit to check out the crowd. and you bet, it was literally jam packed. and irritating. and the slight drizzle wasn't helping either coz everyone started to move in to the shelter. we finally made a move out of there, to KFC at Lot 1 for dinner.

i can't wait for this Saturday! my class will be heading to Jurong for a site visit to a printing factory! we'll be seeing how the printing process goes, the different type of printing technologies available today, so on and so forth. i think this field trip will benefit us a lot for our Packaging Design project. teehee.

text messages at:-

11:40:21am Shida: We missed you!!!
11:40:24am Fatin: We miss you!! You suddenly dawned on our mind (: Fifi too.
11:40:28am Hasni: Hey looney sister, i suddenly miss u..

likewise, girls. i almost teared of joy.
heh. ^^

i am so relieved now that the Corporate Idenity assignment is finally done! i think - no i mean, positive - i'm positive that that was the particular module i spent lots of moolahs on just printing and reprinting my work into perfection. or almost to perfection. i was kind of sceptical of my own work when i presented it last Wednsesday coz i was afraid no one could understand or maybe accept my work in the way i had pictured it to be. but in the end, the feedback i got from Anthon was a good and once the class had presented, he concluded that all of us passed. he didn't tell us our grades of course coz he still needs to analyse our work without our presence. well i know i can ace this, i just hope i ace this the way i want it to.

the new modules coming are predicted to be double the work, double the stress, double the problem and definitely doublemyfearofmoneytrouble how horrible horrible horrible!! Packaging Design is the module coming up and Anthon said there was once a student who spent to about $200 on his/her Packaging Design project. i tell you ah, my jaw almost literally dropped flat to the ground and my eyes might have popped right out of the sockets and all i could hear was myself complaining of money problem. sigh. i'm not even sure if i can pay for my school fees fully starting December onwards. sighh.

and you know what, my mom just told me something heartbreaking last night. bottom line is, my family's bound to face with financial crisis sooner or later. she barely has 1K with her now. so how the hell is my family going to survive, what with my mom and dad's (him especially) medical expenses, household bills, et cetera? i really wish there was more i could help, to earn more income. working at the zoo is barely enough for me to support myself with my school fees and buying materials for school assignments. however, i have been thinking of ways to earn some cash. and all that i could ever thought of is to submit my work (if i ever start doing 'em) to this local website for tshirt design. say, if my work's selected, i'll get like the winning prize: some hundred dollars, i forgot. then they'll print my design on the tshirt, sell it up online, and for every piece of my shirt sold, i'll get a commission. that seems like an easy way out but it might take a while..

a long while actually. coz recently, Eva, the school's education manager (she's been helping me to get into internships) has been pestering me (in a good way) to update my website with new works. the latest buzz here is, there's this company (which i don't even know who/what) requested Eva to view my protfolio/website. but Eva has yet to accept the request UNLESS i upload some new work. daaaammnn. i've been struggling like hell doing Corporate Identity, barely had a break for myself, and now that the module has ended and i can now have a few days of rest until the new module starts, i still have to squeeze whatever brain juice i have remaining, thinking of what i should upload and what else i can create. man it's weird how i feel like i'm always "exercising" my brain all the time and yet i can be so gullible and legong most of the time. geez. my brain is so cluttered.

paranoia aside, yesterday was.. different. idk, maybe coz last night was a very simple day out with the usual 2 couples. lepak, dinner, movie. such a ridiculously idiotic and humorous movie that you are BOUND to crack up, no matter how many "wtf?!" reactions you give. hahahaha! Lesbian Vampire Killers - and it's in British too!

hmm now look at the date. i hate it when every end of the month is drawing near as it's a sign of time passing by fast. but yet i kind of look forward to the coming of the next month due to pay day. huhu. oh how typical!

k now i feel like my body's heating up. i've been wanting to hit the bed mattress while i was halfway through typing all these. well, till then suckas.

i swear, this is goddamn funny!
check out 1:07 onwards. wtf?!

the one that's right above are the entire Zoo Ticketing girls. we're missing Karine and Teresa. the ticketing manpower is growing but i'm definitely gonna miss Emily and Shenlynn when they leave us. :(

was i on hiatus? more like being a lazy ass. school assignment's been taking too much of my time this month and that result to me being only able to work on weekends. sigh. i prefer to work 3 days per week, though. tiring, yes but i need money for school fees.. and for the assignments! next module will start by end of this month, and that needs more money, unfortunately. Packaging Design, yikes.

well since the last time i was here, sooo many interesting thing happens. iftar with some friends, hari raya outings, hari raya plannings that almost didn't work out, anniversary, the ups and downs of love and life and how right now i'm only able to upload over a hundred pictures on Fb ONE BY ONE DUE TO FB'S TECHNICAL ERRORS OR MAYBE IT'S JUST MY COMPUTER OR I DON'T KNOW WHAT BUT IT'S GETTING ON MY NERVES!! chao chi.

moving on, raya outings were awesome. been so long since i see my TP girls and everyone's been the same. miss them a hell lot. oh and Fatin's button did some "popping" throughout the entire day, omg lol! then Pe'ah forever got mixed up with words and pronounciations. standard ah. oh ya, the class bbq pit will start later on today and sadly i'm not able to make it. why? well, the usual; school and assignment. and i might need to head to Peace Centre first or something to check on stock (paper). sigh. you guys have fun, and help control Bibik TinTin's food intake! haha. ade je nanti bende lain plak yg pop.


the very next day after i was out with the TP mates, it was another raya outing with the DSS; Dear's sec school buddies. but this time round almost everyone has their own transportation which pretty much make our journey very convenient. with the exception of having to pull up my kain for you-know-what. and it's funny how nobody complained about having to go back and forth on the same route multiple times! there was food almost at every house and i swear, by the end of the day, i felt like throwing up after sucking in my tummy the whole time. hah.

as for our anniversary, it didn't quite go according to plan. we wanted to watch Momok at Rex Cinema but we were pretty low on budget after we had our dinner. haha. ooh and i had duck rice. it was... meh. could've been better. i have yet to grab hold of the pictures though.

right, i need to carry on with my assignment now. hopefully i won't take about almost a month to update my next post. ^-^v

i'll be having a class presentation this week. of which i din't sleep properly for the past 2 days and having to look after my dad at the same time, in the middle of the night. so today, when the day of my presentation comes, i left home for school quite early to test out if my sis' laptop i'm using to present, will work or not. and now that i'm here, in the class, typing this out, did i realise that my presentation day is scheduled to be this Friday, instead.

ninnabuey.

time check, 1.45am. about an hour ago, a late night bath to perk up this zzzleepy self. and right now (other than updating this), am in the midst of finishing up this yawn-causing Creative Presentation report (which is due tomorrow!) while YouTubing on Hari Raya songs. as much as i still don't feel the excitement of the approaching celebration like i normally would already have by now, the songs pretty much do help make me feel some sort of comfort, in a way. and now i'm beginning to understand how this assignment should go, so that's pretty comforting as well. i'm not as kanchiong as before now, yay. (: well that is all. not much stories here. actually there are lah but being the long-winded person that i am and how i try not to be so long-winded (which i'm actually doing right now ain't i? -___-") i rather skip those for now coz i have things to do, huhu. till the next post.